So a couple of blogs ago I started a “Showing face” which was basically me wanting to do that year of photo challenge but not wanting to over commit so I did a month, weirdly though I much prefered the caption side to my little project so here is the rest of them.
“Day 15-Walsall buses suck. Just picked up my uniform from Walsall Costa, I’m so awkward aha now I’m worrying about how awkward. But fuck it. Fuck fuck fuck it. Waiting for the Walsall train to Birmingham to see nan. Really hoping I have enough money to bus us coffee, pay mom back and go see liam. Maybe even a pot of ultrabalm if I’m lucky. The log lady Catherine Coulson died today found out she was married to Jack Nance who plays the lovely lovely lovely Pete. Have just booked and collected train tickets for London tomorrow and got two books. So hilarious, my mom had a flick through my grey book and asked my what a buttplug was.”
“Day 16. This morning literally got on the train to Euston with literally 30 seconds to spare. Literally. Had a really nice train journey and then got the tube straight to oxford street. Where I had the best time in lush, with this lovely worker! She spent like two hours with me telling me all about the perfumes, the bath bombs, the shower gels , the soaps. How the soap sheets actually cost the same amount to make that they sell, so they don’t make any profit. She was lovely so when I finally got too hungry I went and walked literally from one side of Oxford Street to the other side through all the side roads, everything everywhere it was so lovely. Til finally Liam turned up just after I’d finished a sammich. I spent 39.90 in Lush, snow fairy, snow fairy dust, a massage bar that is designed to show one in four babies is born with an outy belly button, some toothy tabs, a harry potter bath melt, a pumpkin bubble bar and a bat jelly thing. Now i’m at Liam’s feeling anxious about being in a half empty house that any time people could come back too.
“Day 17, it’s technically day 18 but I haven’t slept yet had my first day at Costa Walsall today, was quite good, hated it at first but need to give it time. Will be working 9-6 tomorrow. Had a lovely evening with Jordan at the Spread then watched run Lola Run at mine. Such a nice film it’s like a spin off for the first bit off pulp fiction, but it can’t be a spin off because it came first. God quotes to end the night, now sleep. Feeling happy but missing liam.”
“Day 18 stood at the bus stop, luckily realised my bus was one the other side to the one I was planning on getting on :’) Havn’t eaten apparently Walsall wants me to get there super early or super late. Bit Hungry, bit nervous about the long shift too. Stood in superdrug at 12 for my half hour break. There’s no staff room so I’m just hanging here. Doing a 9-6 makes my back hurt unbelievable amounts.”
“Day 19 relaxing in a basically just warm bath, all my lush stuff and wine after a day of literally serving from 12-5 constant serving at Costa. Constant ques it was so crazy. Apparently it’ll get worse and worse. Now i’m soaking in my bath then a night out with jess and maybe ily.”
Reflection- I now wish i’d taken a better photo this day.
“Day 20 it’s so weird writing this next to a paragraph where I didn’t know how the night was going to go. Last night went really well, although now my stomach hates me :’)we started off at spoons after about half an hour of chatting these two guys came over to escape their friend and jess told them all the stories about her job and then ily appeared. Then off too planet had a really good sing and dance. Milano’s then this lovely taxi man took us both home.”
“Day 21 had a half productive day, did 45 minutes of Babbel, read some grey, yoga, cleaned kitchen and living room, watched some youtube videos, currently going to read one more chapter and then force myself to walk to pharmacy and then come back for theo. Didn’t go to pharmacy, not sure why I didn’t just go. But I did go and see the intern, Robert de niro and Anne Hathaway. It was fantastic, the sort of film that makes you warm inside. If i ever reread this remember to watch the intern when you are sad. It made me want to go and do something, even try massage. Loved it.”
“Day 22 sat in bed trying to read grey, chatting about the world of coffee with a friend from Costa Odeon. Am trying to figure out a halloween costume with Jess and talking about luv with Lam. Theo is laying down my leg with his turtle doris. He is literally ma baba. Today I feel like all I have done is work. I watched a romantic film with superman in it”
When I started writing what I felt was a really lovely and nostalgic process from September of last year, I had all of my little diary entries saved into the notes in my phone so I am going to have to end it at day 22. I am so annoyed that these were the only copy I had of them so when my phone was stolen out of my bag I lost everything including a lot of photos.
I think these days when you steal someones phone you are not really taking anything worthwhile stealing, my phone was cracked and badly maintained because it was used so much, it’d probably go for a tenner off someone who desperately needed any phone but to me it was extremely valuable. It had photographs, messages, hundreds and hundreds of notes, all of which I took for granted being stored safely in my phone.
Stay safe kids! keep copies of all your bits and bobs.